07/04/2016 - Sometimes God places you in positions that you would never expect to be in and a lot of times, well actually EVERY TIME, He places you there at the right moment. It's been two days of being at Audiofeed and I feel so honored and humbled to be here. I've never experienced something like this in my life. It's like having the summer camp experience that I never had the chance to have. From setting up a tent to sleeping in a sleeping bag, I truly can say that I'm "roughing" it. Well, sort of, considering there are showers and toilets here. The craziest thing that I'm experiencing is that there's such a comradary with all the bands here. Who knew band from all over could come together, play shows, and be with one another in peace. To see people genuinely happy to see one another is simply amazing. Something that I'm not used to by any means. Speaking of things that I'm not used to, I'm not used to watching hardcore shows. Who knew that I would ACTUALLY enjoy the music. I'm starting to understand each genre and what the differences between them are. It's so refreshing to hear music way outside my realm. The biggest thing that has stood out to me is that most of the bands are believers. A hardcore metal band is actually glorifying God. WHO KNEW? For so long I have always thought that metal, hardcore and other forms of rock was negative. But in actuality, it's totally the opposite. Just like people, music can express the love of God differently. It has really opened my eyes to truly learn the scenes, cultures, and lifestyles of other genres of music to be able to grasp the concepts of how they strengthen themselves in God. From listening to Bri's beautifully eerie voice to Phineas' ripping lead guitar riffs, I'm so overwhelmed with what this music has done for me spiritually.
Throughout it all, I'm still trying to find my place. Sometimes it does get a little lonely, but not in the sense that I need someone, but more in a fashion that I wish people could understand the interests that I have. But what I am learning is that life isn't about me. It's about living the way God has called me to live. It's my purpose to use my gifts to minister and I feel like God has been pulling on my heartstrings to continue to push myself to become better to be able to minister better to others. It's just been really tough to find a way to minister in a way that people can understand. The more I pursue music the more I have found that the different languages of music genres aren't that distant.
I guess I have to bridge that gap.