11/28/16 - Yep, it's me again, being inconsistent af with these blog entries. It's been about two months since I've written something here. There really isn't a great excuse other than I've been so busy with my thoughts. Too many thoughts, not enough action; So many great ideas, but not enough execution. That sounds really terrible, but that's the place that I've been in lately. I just felt like I couldn't entirely focus on the task at hand due to me being overwhelmed with gigs and people asking me for favors. It just gets exhausting. I AM exhausted. I thought that maybe I was slipping into depression. I really did not want to talk to anyone, or be bothered by anything. I kind of brushed off people that were wondering when my next project was being released. I just didn't really care about anything at all.
Life become routine: work. barely eat. barely sleep. work again.
When I say work, I definitely am not saying music work, but actually 9 to 5 work. Much of my time has been spent at my corporate duties and the expansion of the company. It's actually quite sad. I am excellent at my job and I care about the advancement of my employees, but I really do not want to be there. When you spend a lot of time on something, you tend to neglect things that actually matter. In my case: music.
I've been honestly trying to get back on track, but its difficult when you're so used to sulking. I guess it's ok to feel this way, but I know that I can't allow it to stop me from doing what will help me succeed. I've been called to use my talents elsewhere and staying in that place is only going to hinder my growth. I guess as I type this I am realizing that sulking only makes things worse. Like my best friend said: "You can't allow obstacles to stop you."
I guess the less I focus on things that won't get me anywhere, the more time I have for the thing that will propel me. God has more for me than fueling a big business' dream.